The Real Side Of Release

After all of their training, Jonas has been looking everything in a different way, his plays were different, now is way of of having fun weren't as before, he is always connecting with the memories that have been give in to him like war. One day they were talking about what was released, and 

Jonas thought that he had never seen a released so he was cruised because his dad did that really frequently.  the giver asked to watch the releasing ceremony that day and they saw how the ``ceremony``was done, Jonas was so confused and disappointed, he didn't expect that the the ceremony of releasing was actually killing someone, he decide to spend the night with the giver because wasn't capable to return home after what he saw, he start thinking how he could change that, his ideas were clear, anybody would understand what he was saying, and how does it feels,so he decides to scape and make all the memories came back. But the Giver tell what would happened if he does scape, every body would we confuse, when Rosemary was released the memories that she holed came back to the community they had trouble with their feelings, understanding. But Jonas has too manny memories inside and if he goes the community would we a chaos, a problem because they don't know anything. 

Jonas felt a ripping sensation inside himself, the felling of terrible pain clawing its way forward to emerge in a cry. (151 Lois Lowry)

This quote came after Jonas saw the ceremony of release from that new born child, after his disappointment and his realizing that he has to do something because everything was wrong, that ripping sensation we have inside when we do something wrong or when we knew that something inset okay … this also involves the frustration from Jonas `cause he is always trying to `make a better place and, always something worse that make him think how he would make a change in his society, how he will make them see beyond.. but anybody could do it just him and The Giver and the next and previous receivers. 

When Jonas felt the ripping sensation inside and then he wanted to cry so badly is because we know when we do something that is wrong, something that you knew that you could do it better, or in another way, I had felt the sam thing a couple of times in my life, when I know I have to do sometime and I do the opposite,and after that, after  while I feel so bad like a time I was at home I was younger and I was responsable from my sisters and I thought that it was easy so I left them alone, after a while I came back to watch them and when I saw them i realize that they make a mess, they hit themselves, i receive my punishment after that I never leave my sisters alone.